I have yet to process a lot of things. I seem to have grown much slower with processing. I think I’m accustomed more to trends than day to day lessons now.
But as I think back on VBC this past week, I can’t help but think of how I was when I was younger. My great fervor with which I longed for the kids’ hearts and I wanted to gift them and my energy was so much more full. I feel like now I get this verse so much more.
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
– Isaiah 40:28-31
I’m still considered young. But I can see what my a good friend was saying when she said she seems to have a childlikeness that she once possessed. And in a way, I feel very similar. I think my heart has grown hardened, trapped in a world of what is “feasible” and expected. I may pray expecting but it may not he much that I’m ready to expect.
Holy Spirit free me to dream bigger.
The Unforced Rhythms of Grace 